"trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if it's broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother fuckers reflection..."
yup very true gaga.
i really think there is such thing as second chance (eventho she cheated on me 3 kali k), but i cant. everytime i look at her there's this insecurity feeling, there's this voice telling me "she's using you oniiiiii". someone said i kuat memilih, but the fact is i just not into anyone except her. how can that be? how should i know? so the only way for me to not think about her is work. work like mad. mutual on every chance i get. yeah it cuts both i knoe. the more tired i get, the more depressed i get. tell me about it. smoking alone is no fun anymore since ill be depressed enuf to be not in the mood for anything even kerja. how can one get over someone? tell me...
"im feeling all superhuman you did this to me, a superhuman heart beats in me, nothing can stop me..."
owh well im not superhuman anymore chris...
Sunday, April 18, 2010
writers block kah?
its funny whenever im at my second home (where my desktop and internet connection is absence) i get tons of stuff to write about but when im here at home ill be speechless in front of my desktop. take this for instance, ive been depressed (as always) about life, karma and love especially lately and i tend to have deep and dark stuff to write about, but the minute i got home i'll be like "what was i depressed about??". maybe its the "home sweet home" aura, that gave me that feeling of comfort and security.
my job hasnt been so much of travelling since im packed with daily flights this month. i only have 3 nightstops; miri, taipei and kaoshiung. even worst my next month roster is packed with class and offdays ONLY. yup no flights at all (minus my airbus SNY). shit! i cant even tapau aircraft food since i dont have any flight at all. owh well look on the bright side, i can finally mutual for dubai, osaka and sydney flights.
life has been quite interesting tho, finally i can say that ive survived medium haul driving. wee i've leveled up! drove all the way to melaka the other day. went there with wanie, hairul and finaster. ate in jonker, tries the ikan bakar and went up in the taming sari tower a.k.a melaka solero shock! hahha
my job hasnt been so much of travelling since im packed with daily flights this month. i only have 3 nightstops; miri, taipei and kaoshiung. even worst my next month roster is packed with class and offdays ONLY. yup no flights at all (minus my airbus SNY). shit! i cant even tapau aircraft food since i dont have any flight at all. owh well look on the bright side, i can finally mutual for dubai, osaka and sydney flights.
life has been quite interesting tho, finally i can say that ive survived medium haul driving. wee i've leveled up! drove all the way to melaka the other day. went there with wanie, hairul and finaster. ate in jonker, tries the ikan bakar and went up in the taming sari tower a.k.a melaka solero shock! hahha
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
ehem eheemmm
this is life, like it or not honest people will never make it in life...
yup i do agree with my mum. honest people wil never make it in life. one has to suck up, became an ultimate champion in ass licking, stab or step on others and do anything in order for em to be succesful. so tru this opinion i came to a conclusion which to be happy (or succesfull) in life one had(need) to be very or ultimately evil. so where does karma fill in all this thing? the rich is getting richer and the poor is getting poorer. power plays an important role in life. if one doesnt have power(or influence) he/she will never get to be a puppetier and will always be the puppet. like what they always says "influence is like money, the less you use, the more you have and more you can buy..." isnt it?
am doing my 5 days trip. 2 nights in kch and 2 more nights in kk. its gonna be hell lotsof money for me next month. yeehaww.. i get to save and get to shop at the same time. yeah. things are getting around for me. 2010 what has you installed for me ya?
lately ive been thinking, since they also said that "there's always that special someone for you out there..." when they say out there, they didnt really point out to which direction. so should i be looking? or she can find her way to me? funny how this world works. if i go looking people would say ive been looking too much till i cant see what is infront of my eyes or ive been looking at the wrong place. if i dont look they will tell you to look or to look harder. what with this fairytale shit? as what adam sandler said in bedtime stories "there's no happy ending in life..." i do agree with that since we will endup die in our story. so where is that so called happy ending? but then again i would congratulate to those who actually find that happiness in life. you are truely one in a gazillion. since i dont really understand life. there's more to life than just life itself which ive yet to discover. aish what am i whinning about neyh? yet another period of my life which i cant stop complain about anything and everything. but all i can say that im hoping for the best. which i always do. having good friends really does help. so thanxs everyone.
yup i do agree with my mum. honest people wil never make it in life. one has to suck up, became an ultimate champion in ass licking, stab or step on others and do anything in order for em to be succesful. so tru this opinion i came to a conclusion which to be happy (or succesfull) in life one had(need) to be very or ultimately evil. so where does karma fill in all this thing? the rich is getting richer and the poor is getting poorer. power plays an important role in life. if one doesnt have power(or influence) he/she will never get to be a puppetier and will always be the puppet. like what they always says "influence is like money, the less you use, the more you have and more you can buy..." isnt it?
am doing my 5 days trip. 2 nights in kch and 2 more nights in kk. its gonna be hell lotsof money for me next month. yeehaww.. i get to save and get to shop at the same time. yeah. things are getting around for me. 2010 what has you installed for me ya?
lately ive been thinking, since they also said that "there's always that special someone for you out there..." when they say out there, they didnt really point out to which direction. so should i be looking? or she can find her way to me? funny how this world works. if i go looking people would say ive been looking too much till i cant see what is infront of my eyes or ive been looking at the wrong place. if i dont look they will tell you to look or to look harder. what with this fairytale shit? as what adam sandler said in bedtime stories "there's no happy ending in life..." i do agree with that since we will endup die in our story. so where is that so called happy ending? but then again i would congratulate to those who actually find that happiness in life. you are truely one in a gazillion. since i dont really understand life. there's more to life than just life itself which ive yet to discover. aish what am i whinning about neyh? yet another period of my life which i cant stop complain about anything and everything. but all i can say that im hoping for the best. which i always do. having good friends really does help. so thanxs everyone.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
when i was little
"good morning, welcome onboard..."
these are the four words that literally melt me when i board the aircraft or wal to my seat. i still remember when i was little, i would stare at their uniform and name tag wishing that it is me inside that uniform. hahah now only i realize how crazy i am about this job.
"ladies and gentlemen,
this is your seatbelt, to fasten, insert the metal link into the buckle and tighten the belt by pulling on the buckle strap..."
when i was little, how i really concentrate and pay attention to the safety demo. REALLY... you would see me standing or my head popped up either at the seat or at the aisle. i dont know whats about the safety demo that im really amazed about. maybe its the orange life vest that caught my eyes. kinky... :P
"today we're serving... would you like an orange juice with that?"
when i was little, i love airline food. i mean i freaking love it! to the point where i would eat before i go for a flight, in order for me to tapau the food and enjoy it when i got to the hotel or home. i freaking fell head over heels man. the orange juice... ohhh i wonder who was the steward/stewardess who kept refilling my tumbler everytime i go for a flight. kesian. hahaha
"*sniff* *sniff*, aaa i think its lemon..."
the same ol' lemon-ish smell that greets me when im seated at my seat. the smell that makes me really feel that im on an aircraft, going somewhere... for a holiday... away from home...
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after 22 years of flying i still crazy about the aircraft food, juice, safety demo, the air re freshener and the crew. ini bukan statement menjilat punggung tetapi i still love all that stuff WHENEVER IM TRAVELLING AS A PASSENGER. i always wonder how did MAS won all those 5 star awards, try flying with other airlines especially those budjet airlines, then you'll know. :D ngeee
im at shah alam. m enjoying my 2 days off. at last i went to the frames which ive been wanting to go for like, ages already hahahhaha went there with cik wanie dan hencem. had our dessert in tony romas, pyramid. jauh kan?! and it took us 1 hour plus to get from ttdi to sunway. hahahha now only i appreciate working up there since i dont have to drive and even if there's traffic jam, im not the one who is driving. hahahha went jamming afterward with my shah alam bestie incik cd dan ms ema. lagu pelik-pelik sekarang dorang main. hebat!
actually the number one reason why i did this blog was actually to talk about my life and especially WORK. yup work as in travelling and stuff. yang pelik nye i have nothing to talk about my job. isnt it weird, how i complain this and that to my friends but i never really have something solid to write about. day in day out, its always the same routine that i did up there. nothing special, same type of passenger, nothing much on my set of crew and same ol' menu and service. so what is that somthing that i want to write about??! weird.
i really forgot to blog about this...
THANKS WANIE FOR THE LAVA LAMP! you know me that well huh!? sorry i didnt bought anything for your birthday. things hasnt been so kind to me lately (urr ever since the gate thinggy)
i guess everyone have their things to get before 2011 kan so here's my simple and short list.
- fisheye 2.0
- winter jacket
- new shoes
- guess collection watch
- bb bold 2 / goggle phone / iphone
- an acoustic guitar
- givency play
roster update
today - off
tomorrow - sbw NS
12,13 - kua SD
btw happy birthday to me comrades (mims, sally, atira, hidayah, max) february babies rawks!
these are the four words that literally melt me when i board the aircraft or wal to my seat. i still remember when i was little, i would stare at their uniform and name tag wishing that it is me inside that uniform. hahah now only i realize how crazy i am about this job.
"ladies and gentlemen,
this is your seatbelt, to fasten, insert the metal link into the buckle and tighten the belt by pulling on the buckle strap..."
when i was little, how i really concentrate and pay attention to the safety demo. REALLY... you would see me standing or my head popped up either at the seat or at the aisle. i dont know whats about the safety demo that im really amazed about. maybe its the orange life vest that caught my eyes. kinky... :P
"today we're serving... would you like an orange juice with that?"
when i was little, i love airline food. i mean i freaking love it! to the point where i would eat before i go for a flight, in order for me to tapau the food and enjoy it when i got to the hotel or home. i freaking fell head over heels man. the orange juice... ohhh i wonder who was the steward/stewardess who kept refilling my tumbler everytime i go for a flight. kesian. hahaha
"*sniff* *sniff*, aaa i think its lemon..."
the same ol' lemon-ish smell that greets me when im seated at my seat. the smell that makes me really feel that im on an aircraft, going somewhere... for a holiday... away from home...
---
after 22 years of flying i still crazy about the aircraft food, juice, safety demo, the air re freshener and the crew. ini bukan statement menjilat punggung tetapi i still love all that stuff WHENEVER IM TRAVELLING AS A PASSENGER. i always wonder how did MAS won all those 5 star awards, try flying with other airlines especially those budjet airlines, then you'll know. :D ngeee
im at shah alam. m enjoying my 2 days off. at last i went to the frames which ive been wanting to go for like, ages already hahahhaha went there with cik wanie dan hencem. had our dessert in tony romas, pyramid. jauh kan?! and it took us 1 hour plus to get from ttdi to sunway. hahahha now only i appreciate working up there since i dont have to drive and even if there's traffic jam, im not the one who is driving. hahahha went jamming afterward with my shah alam bestie incik cd dan ms ema. lagu pelik-pelik sekarang dorang main. hebat!
actually the number one reason why i did this blog was actually to talk about my life and especially WORK. yup work as in travelling and stuff. yang pelik nye i have nothing to talk about my job. isnt it weird, how i complain this and that to my friends but i never really have something solid to write about. day in day out, its always the same routine that i did up there. nothing special, same type of passenger, nothing much on my set of crew and same ol' menu and service. so what is that somthing that i want to write about??! weird.
i really forgot to blog about this...
THANKS WANIE FOR THE LAVA LAMP! you know me that well huh!? sorry i didnt bought anything for your birthday. things hasnt been so kind to me lately (urr ever since the gate thinggy)
i guess everyone have their things to get before 2011 kan so here's my simple and short list.
- fisheye 2.0
- winter jacket
- new shoes
- guess collection watch
- bb bold 2 / goggle phone / iphone
- an acoustic guitar
- givency play
roster update
today - off
tomorrow - sbw NS
12,13 - kua SD
btw happy birthday to me comrades (mims, sally, atira, hidayah, max) february babies rawks!
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